It’s hard for me to believe that once again, a long awaited dream is coming true. The first, of course, was my beautiful, amazing baby girls (who as I previously noted are NOT babies anymore). No, this time, the dream coming true is my graduation from college, This one seemed almost as out of reach as my dream of becoming a mom. But that came true and this one will be in about six weeks!
It’s been a long journey and one that at times I really wasn’t sure I could finish. It’s amazing though how motivating the thought of having to pay back student loans for an unfinished degree can be! Well, that wasn’t my *only* motivation! I have two people who watch my every move every day of my life and theirs. Every single thing I do makes an impression on them, so it’s imperative that it be the right one.
Anyway to get back to the point…
At school, announcements were put out about Student Commencement speaker and to my own amazement, I considered it. But I kept going back and forth because I thought “who would be interested in what I have to say?” How much would my speech appeal to a graduating student who was so much younger than me, and hadn’t been through life yet? I was also really busy with school work, my regular work, the girls, oh, just life! The deadline passed but they extended it and the few people I had mentioned it to, responded very positively and as I was discussing it one day with someone in Student Engagement, another woman came by, saw me and asked me if I was applying for it (without even hearing what we were talking about just prior to her arrival!) That did it and I decided to go for it!
I worked on it all weekend and submitted it Monday morning. Shortly after that I ran into one of my professors and I told him what I had done. He asked me to send it to him and he also wanted me to read it to him. After reading it himself first, he told me it was excellent and when could I read it for him? I was finally able to get together with him a few days ago and I read it exactly the way I would if I were up on stage and talking to 1000 people. After, he told me that it was perfect exactly the way it is and not to change a word. He said my delivery was spot on and that it was probably one of the best commencement speeches he had ever heard. He’s not on the committee, but told me that I have an excellent chance of getting it! He said that I hit upon alll the important points and would appeal to everyone. He thinks that professors and faculty wil be validated by it, and that it will resonate with my fellow students as well as those who haven’t graduated yet. He also said that it is a huge tribute to NSCC and that will appeal to the President and Deans. Honestly, I was shocked and very pleased, but I still need to get by the Commencement committee. I’m NOT a competitive person, at least with others, but I am very competitive with myself. I WANT this now, I’m excited for it and I can already picture myself up on stage. I want my girls to see that and be proud of me!
I won’t find out if I wil even be auditioning until later this week, then auditions are being held on the 24th. Last year they had two rounds of auditions. I’m nervous,but only because I want it so bad. I’m actually not that nervous about DOING it, why should I be? It’s my story, it’s honest and if I can make an impression on even one person, then I wil be happy. If I can make a difference in one life well what else can I ask for? Once I know one way or the other, I’ll post whatever the final speech is